Thursday, February 12, 2009
Summer Time & Rejection
This is for Card Positioning Systems #102. I loved this sketch; it was fun and easy! Plus, I love Crate paper, glitter and Glimmer Mist, so this one was a no brainer for me!! The glitter is Art Glitter in Lion's Mane. The ric rac, rub on and tag are all Crate Paper as well.
Now for the rejection! I submitted to the Spellbinders Design Team Call. FAILURE! REJECTION! YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE ON OUR TEAM!!! Now that is certainly not what they said. Their rejection letter was as nice as one can make that sort of thing. That is sure what it felt like, though. I've thought a lot about this, and I can't decide if it's good for me to apply for design teams. I had such success last year. I made five teams and three guest teams in about two month's time. Now this year I have not made it onto several. Why is that? I can only surmise that my work is simply not up to par. What is this desire I have to be on teams? Must I be validated? Is it okay to feel that need? Why do I let the rejection make me feel less than?
I have to digest all this. This and an incubating sinus infection. And a bad case of the winter blues. And a big job interview on Monday. And that my 17yods will be setting out on his own in six or seven months. I actually had to pull over on my way home from school today because I got to crying over that. I'm such a sap.